Bitterness

Give love to him that has great sadness

That which is born by bitterness

Denied true happiness by circumstances

Driven to the edges, poisoning all possibilities

Devoid of all hope, positivity

He carries a shadow of negativity

Corrupting the sweet minds in his vicinity

Angry banter bringing him comfort and perverted,twisted,unnatural felicity

Hugs to him who has been receiving lemons

Unable to make lemonade, bottling the sour

Gallons of flesh eating acid flowing within

Birthing unrelenting pain

Bitterness is a cloud of ruins set for an impending implosion

It runs deep, tainting the soul

Hiding obvious beauty placing a fault in the stars

Without it an imperfect simpler existence awaits

Advice to him that is holding on to past misfortunes

Spit out the bitter and taste the sweet

Move on from the ghosts you can not fight

Let it go

Stronger

I have been alone

The point you notice everyone's gone

When expectations are broken by those unexpected

An eerie kind of lonely ignited

Abandoned

I have felt alien

The life of a social pariah unimaginable to the esteemed

An unforgiving empty state of being

When the skin once worn proudly, burns

Shunned

I have been there

The feeling is that of deadness

A state of absolute stillness and utter darkness

Imagine a room with no exit, walls closing in

Hopelessness

I have been to war

The hustle that is thrust on you

Where you sweat for a lost cause, begging for more

Having nothing and dragging oneself through yet another day

Struggle

I am here

The point of realisation of self worth

Head held high, eyes on the prize

Carrying invisible scars, just a reminder

Stronger

                                                                                                 

This is for you Sandra Chimunhu

             #INSPIRED!!!!

Dawn

Hello to you day-breaker

My nostrils are flaring in welcome of your sweet scent

I feel your wintry breeze on my face, eyelids flutter

Allowing you in with each new breath

Freshness

Goodbye nightmares

A stop to a suffering in the hands of my worst fears

Soothing song of nature calming my nerves,

Greyness fading into the pink of light

Serenity

My thanks for the blank canvas

The colours for my art

Free reign to carve my path

To write a story of myself complete

Hope

Wishing to stay on these high fluffy clouds

A feeling of a precious gift priceless

The gift of a fresh page

Dawn

My Person

How do you do that
Seeing the invisible that is but locked in by my inhibitions
Slithering through the cracks to the orifice of my core
Demolishing the barriers, the walls alien to me
Dormancy broken

Rebirth, my evil twin set free

This brightness so foreign, blinding

I'm in peculiar a place that feels like home

Comfortable like a perfect shoe size

Delirious, confounded, I'm out of my skin
A new high, that of the crack I have never had
Defying gravity, I'm flying
Fearlessly going with the flow
I'm embracing my nature

Breaking the rules I made for reasons bizarre

I'm rewriting my story, my truth

Oblivious to my evolution you sail along

Providing the perfect environment for my being to flourish

Your presence my nourishment

Suddenly whole because you came
An unsung Knight now mine
True to my being because you are
You are , My person

Loving You

Its like being poisoned 

Minute explosions from the inside, destroying the being

A slow gradual death of all that is core

Feeling no pain, in its place fictitious bliss

Like a child, giving you pleasure is my pleasure

Journey of self discovery unstarted

I take what you give and make it my world

A simple life, but surely not for me

There is no real joy here

The scale is unbalanced 

Acting bewitched, losing myself 

Unable to stop, consumed 

Illogical affection for a parasite 

Loving you is a disease

That of the mind , insanity

Loving you is a drug 

An addiction, terrible after effects

Loving you was wrong

Heart Pains : Letters to him

Dear Mr ...

I can't place this feeling

Am I resigned, sad, afraid 

Why am I calm, wondering

Maybe tomorrow I will feel

Or maybe I will sink into oblivion

Not missing you or wondering

Wouldn't mind at all

My reality is dark that's what it is

There could be light at the end of the tunnel

No one knows

Walk with me please that's all I ask

I have come to a realisation

That this feeling, love, hard to suppress

Why you though, jury is still out

Stubborn fact: for as long as I feel it I know I will be here

I am here...

Hello Mr ...

I'm exhausted

Been running up Everest and down

The high and low 

Losing my breathe

My heart's weathering

I'm feeling dizzy

Been on the merry go round

More than a thousand circles

Losing my mind

My head is spinning

Lost in the silence between us

This cave ,dark and eerie

Your laughter an echo,scary

I'm not afraid, just numb

My heart and head useless now

Addled, sapped can't do anything now

I'm just waiting on you now

Release me

Lost girl

She has a broken campus useless in the woods

Looking for hidden pirates treasure,precious

Deep into the woods she goes

Drawn by a strong force,supernatural

She has no map

Her bearing all messed up

Promised treasure nowhere to be found

A wild goose chase it was

That sweet devil's whisper, enchanting

Which way is home , the trees all look the same

There is a storm brewing 

Lost in the woods, alone freezing

Needing a miracle, light

Lost girl

Wait for day

Dawn is near.

Dear Mr ...

My deepest regrets

Your flowers have wilted

A painful death, irreversible

I wept, my tears dried

You stayed away, just a little too long

Your place in my heart, void

My feelings for you, ashes

Buried deep, to be unseen

I bled, I'm healing

You stayed away, just a little too long

Its a little too late now

The waters run dry

You are lost, ghost

Only memories live on 

I am not afraid to remember

You shouldn't either

Vivid memories of moments, all so surreal

Those will fade

A beautiful dream shared

Wake up now...

Sisterhood

Dear Kashiri

You know you had a choice right
Watch from sidelines
Love from a distance
Care just enough to be cordial
Or simply ignore

I think , you didn't even think
Like falling in love only not all consuming
Just a simple act of kindness
I think, that's what you think
Only not so simple to me

From the one gesture was born a feeling
Admiration, Respect, Love, Inspiration
Words that come close to describing it
Nothing to sum it up
Not blind love or hero worship
A feeling so real, indescribable

No blood involved yet so strong
The bond formed between friends that are more than friends
Like family, the kind you pick out yourself
It's easy to be your friend
Not that easy to be your sister
But that much more fulfilling
That love unconditional, the love for family

We fight you know
Never like crazed people
Tempers flare , emotions get high
No insults hurled still
You just get me, I am in awe
Dude you are real, It's so cool

I think you don't realize how I feel
Or maybe you just don't see what I see
I don't dwell on that though
Because you are my sister my friend
Even if it means less to you than it does to me

Kashiri you should know

I got you...
                           I love you,
I'll be here!!!!