Friday, 18 November 2016

Bitterness



Give love to him that has great sadness
That which is born by bitterness
Denied true happiness by circumstances
Driven to the edges, poisoning all possibilities


Devoid of all hope, positivity
He carries a shadow of negativity
Corrupting the sweet minds in his vicinity
Angry banter bringing him comfort and perverted,twisted,unnatural felicity


Hugs to him who has been receiving lemons
Unable to make lemonade, bottling the sour
Gallons of flesh eating acid flowing within
Birthing unrelenting pain


Bitterness is a cloud of ruins set for an impending implosion
It runs deep, tainting the soul
Hiding obvious beauty placing a fault in the stars
Without it an imperfect simpler existence awaits


Advice to him that is holding on to past misfortunes
Spit out the bitter and taste the sweet
Move on from the ghosts you can not fight
Let it go



Friday, 1 July 2016

Stronger


I have been alone
The point you notice everyone's gone
When expectations are broken by those unexpected
An eerie kind of lonely ignited
Abandoned


I have felt alien
The life of a social pariah unimaginable to the esteemed
An unforgiving empty state of being
When the skin once worn proudly, burns
Shunned


I have been there
The feeling is that of deadness
A state of absolute stillness and utter darkness
Imagine a room with no exit, walls closing in
Hopelessness


I have been to war
The hustle that is thrust on you
Where you sweat for a lost cause, begging for more
Having nothing and dragging oneself through yet another day
Struggle


I am here
The point of realisation of self worth
Head held high, eyes on the prize
Carrying invisible scars, just a reminder
Stronger






                                                                                                 
This is for you Sandra Chimunhu

             #INSPIRED!!!!






Tuesday, 8 March 2016

Dawn

Hello to you day-breaker
My nostrils are flaring in welcome of your sweet scent
I feel your wintry breeze on my face, eyelids flutter
Allowing you in with each new breath
Freshness

Goodbye nightmares
A stop to a suffering in the hands of my worst fears
Soothing song of nature calming my nerves,
Greyness fading into the pink of light
Serenity



My thanks for the blank canvas
The colours for my art
Free reign to carve my path
To write a story of myself complete
Hope



Wishing to stay on these high fluffy clouds
A feeling of a precious gift priceless
The gift of a fresh page
Dawn


Monday, 7 March 2016

My Person


How do you do that
Seeing the invisible that is but locked in by my inhibitions
Slithering through the cracks to the orifice of my core
Demolishing the barriers, the walls alien to me
Dormancy broken


Rebirth, my evil twin set free
This brightness so foreign, blinding
I'm in peculiar a place that feels like home
Comfortable like a perfect shoe size


Delirious, confounded, I'm out of my skin
A new high, that of the crack I have never had
Defying gravity, I'm flying
Fearlessly going with the flow
I'm embracing my nature


Breaking the rules I made for reasons bizarre
I'm rewriting my story, my truth
Oblivious to my evolution you sail along
Providing the perfect environment for my being to flourish
Your presence my nourishment


Suddenly whole because you came
An unsung Knight now mine
True to my being because you are
You are , My person



Wednesday, 10 February 2016

Loving You



Its like being poisoned 
Minute explosions from the inside, destroying the being
A slow gradual death of all that is core
Feeling no pain, in its place fictitious bliss



Like a child, giving you pleasure is my pleasure
Journey of self discovery unstarted
I take what you give and make it my world
A simple life, but surely not for me


There is no real joy here
The scale is unbalanced 
Acting bewitched, losing myself 
Unable to stop, consumed 
Illogical affection for a parasite 


Loving you is a disease
That of the mind , insanity
Loving you is a drug 
An addiction, terrible after effects
Loving you stinks!


Monday, 11 January 2016

Heart Pains : Letters to him

Dear Mr ...

I can't place this feeling
Am I resigned, sad, afraid 
Why am I calm, wondering

Maybe tomorrow I will feel
Or maybe I will sink into oblivion
Not missing you or wondering
Wouldn't mind at all

My reality is dark that's what it is
There could be light at the end of the tunnel
No one knows
Walk with me please that's all I ask

I have come to a realisation
That this feeling, love, hard to suppress
Why you though, jury is still out
Stubborn fact: for as long as I feel it I know I will be here

I am here...




Hello Mr ...

I'm exhausted
Been running up Everest and down
The high and low 
Losing my breathe
My heart's weathering

I'm feeling dizzy
Been on the merry go round
More than a thousand circles
Losing my mind
My head is spinning

Lost in the silence between us
This cave ,dark and eerie
Your laughter an echo,scary
I'm not afraid, just numb

My heart and head useless now
Addled, sapped can't do anything now
I'm just waiting on you now

Release me




Lost girl

She has a broken campus useless in the woods
Looking for hidden pirates treasure,precious
Deep into the woods she goes
Drawn by a strong force,supernatural

She has no map
Her bearing all messed up
Promised treasure nowhere to be found
A wild goose chase it was
That sweet devil's whisper, enchanting

Which way is home , the trees all look the same
There is a storm brewing 
Lost in the woods, alone freezing
Needing a miracle, light

Lost girl
Wait for day
Dawn is near.





Dear Mr ...

My deepest regrets
Your flowers have wilted
A painful death, irreversible
I wept, my tears dried
You stayed away, just a little too long

Your place in my heart, void
My feelings for you, ashes
Buried deep, to be unseen
I bled, I'm healing
You stayed away, just a little too long

Its a little too late now
The waters run dry
You are lost, ghost
Only memories live on 

I am not afraid to remember
You shouldn't either
Vivid memories of moments, all so surreal
Those will fade
A beautiful dream shared


Wake up now...



















Friday, 1 January 2016

Sisterhood

Dear Kashiri

You know you had a choice right
Watch from sidelines
Love from a distance
Care just enough to be cordial
Or simply ignore

I think , you didn't even think
Like falling in love only not all consuming
Just a simple act of kindness
I think, that's what you think
Only not so simple to me

From the one gesture was born a feeling
Admiration, Respect, Love, Inspiration
Words that come close to describing it
Nothing to sum it up
Not blind love or hero worship
A feeling so real, indescribable

No blood involved yet so strong
The bond formed between friends that are more than friends
Like family, the kind you pick out yourself
It's easy to be your friend
Not that easy to be your sister
But that much more fulfilling
That love unconditional, the love for family

We fight you know
Never like crazed people
Tempers flare , emotions get high
No insults hurled still
You just get me, I am in awe
Dude you are real, It's so cool

I think you don't realize how I feel
Or maybe you just don't see what I see
I don't dwell on that though
Because you are my sister my friend
Even if it means less to you than it does to me

Kashiri you should know

I got you...
                           I love you,
I'll be here!!!!